The winter months are always a hard time for me because it is so gray and yucky outside that it naturally takes the sunshine out of  my personality.  I am still not dealing very well with the death of my father and I am having a lot of troubles in my life as a wife.  I just wonder how much a human soul can take before it starts to crack?  I remember myself as a happier person and I miss that person and want to get back to that, but I assume it is going to take a long time and some sunshine to boot.